yes.

I was just freaking out from the situation that I am not used to deal with.

She was showing off her Bat-mobile( of course 'used' from ebay moters).
Since it was used, some of feature of the car doesn't work properly.
Left rear wing stuck in the housing due to the excessive rust.
I had to fix it by forcing to pull it.

And she took me to the Mercedes-Benz show room next block to show me a personal
Air plane made by the Benz. It was really futuristic looking jet plane colored with
silver and purple.

She told me that she is dying to get the plane. I thought that statement was pretty
sexy but I felt bad because it only has one seat.

I woke up from the dream.

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B

the memories are slowly fade away like an ice in water.

Also my dreams are hiding away to the very corner of my memory.

I won't try to catch because it will be back anytime soon.

bye and hello.

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forgotten dream.

recently,
i don't dream.


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healty food

some one was serving bacons and Spams and claiming that the food is healty.
I was arguing with the guy about the bacon and Spam is not a healty food all through the night.

last night

she became a cloud and fade away through my hands.






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B

I was packing my books and I found a photobook from a girl that I've known from college.
In the book, there are several notes that she wrote. The note sounds like she was talking to me. maybe or maybe not.
She said she bought the book for herself but she decided to give me instead about a two years ago. and then she started to put a note on it.

Anyway, one of the note said, " This is the picture that made me want to send this book to you. I have no idea how he took a picture this beautiful... PLEASE make me a beautiful thing. Stuff that becomes more and more beautiful as the time goes by."

I thought about the past.
strange energy that she had.
the book was a perfact sqare.

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SOS

help.





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hunger strike.

When the hunger strikes,
It became very heavy and low.
It almost feel like your legs are trapped in the tar pond.

You want to go there but you can't.

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visiting north korea

I went to the North korea last night in ny dream.
It was pretty dramatic moment because my parent and grand mother came down to the south when the Korean war 1950.
Anyway, i was just happy that my grandma get to visit hometown before she pass away.

However the north korea was so bizzar and unrealistic, everything seems to be fake.
I was so disappointed and also the air,the atmosphere, was really grainy like a high ISO film.
Soon after we get to this street the space connected to the huge department store that similar to the MACY's on a broadway NYC except the escalator was gold instead of wood.

I was going up on the escalator and looked up and there was super hot lady from info desk. She was wearing really tight one piece latex uniform and it was glossy white with blue stripe in the middle which emphasize the shape of her body. I couldn't take my eyes off from her and her micro skirt. I fell in love.

But the dreamy feeling of love got away as I observed the people in the store.
There were many people seems to be families, no one was individual. They act like really un-natural as if they are acting at a movie. Also their facial expression was really negative. They were not angery but they looked anxious.
I was assuming that they are try to escape from the North Korea and I also reminds a couple of super dramatic stories of a family that escaped from N Korea.
I was keep observing and observing and the whole space became black and white.

And then I've got a text message from a girl whom i know from the school.
The text was like this
" if you are a men text me back - S-H "
I replied
" sure Im all man and I want to fuck you"

I woke up with the blazing alarm clock.

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sadness

Suddenly, I felt sadness.
And I didn't know why.
It was like a smoky flaver of Bacon.

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retirement.

I told him, I can not work for you anymore.
And he asked why.

So I explain about a paradoxical situation that he has been giving me.

He said he could understand what I said but I was 100% sure that he is not able to understand why and what is conflicting.

In order to accomplish you dream, you have to have total reconstruction of your ego and way of communicating with the world around him.
Also and most importantly you have to have a taste of satisfaction on your tip of tongue. Doesn't need to be a easy satisfactioner(probably not a real word but hope it make sense) but sometime you should be satisfied and relexed.

well, again he doesn't understood and he was tring to avoid the situation again.
And he said "well, you'll understand when you grow up"

I really hate when people says that.

and I woke up.
I was pretty sure this dream is so shallow and closed to the reality.

heavy.

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wrapping up the situation.

It was very humid night and I was riding a bike with someone.
We were chattin about somethin but I don't exactly know what it was about.
wind was blowing with the words and the words fade away like a smoke.

I didn't quite understand what she said and I was keep saying "tomorrow".
but there was not "tomorrow".

It starts raining. water follows the tire and got on my back.
Why the rain walk reverse way?
I was curious.

soked.

It was very sour feeling.

felt heavy.

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indoor MTB down hill park.

So, Last night

IT started in the indoor down hill park.
There was a couple of kickers and pond in between the kicker plus lots of riders.
They are jumping like a sequencial shot on a skateboard magazine, you know one of those trick shot still pics looks like a film .

I didn't know how I ended up in that park but as I remember I was riding my 1974 vaspa GTR which has been seating in my dad's garage for 4 years. I think I finally fixed it and I was really happy riding on it. The sound of two cycle engine was so sexy.

While I was watching those riders in the building I saw a 1984 wine red VW vanagon passing by. Since I 've been fell in love with that van I was gonna follow that van.
I ran to my vespa but it was gone. WTF! I was so sad.
-Flesh Back!-
I was thinking back about the van. I could see blue shadow of my vespa.
DAMN!
The furious persuit was already started.
And than I caught him and he turned out to be a owner of the downhill park.

The fighting and arguing turned into normal chatting and we became a friend.
And we start talking about the van, Vanagon. And again he turn into my building manager 4 years ago. His name is Kevin and he is doing Vanagon biz.

anyway,
I woke up with back pain this morning.

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recent dream.

I dont remember it was last night or the night before.

It is very unusual when 'murder attempt' involved in my dream,
but the dream was very furious and I was trying so hard to escape from the scene.

--
There was a guy named D-Kim. He is originally nice guy but he's a bit weiredo.

It was basement like a sewer.

He was trying to kill me in my dream.
I fought against to survive.
the best part was the chapstick war.

So, against him I started throwing a metal chapstick like a ninja.
Soon after he throw the chapstick back. I picked up a table near by me to block the
attack. He havn't had anything, so I got him several sticks.
on his chest
on his leg
However, my effort became nothing. He was just fine.
While i was fighting a big fat guy sneaked into and told me that he know a way to go out. He wores a grey pant and white shirts with a brown suspender.

He said he wants to save me but I have to carry his suit.
So I hold it on my left hand.
I followed him.
There was a wall looks like a interior wall from typical amrican house.
The big guy slide one of the section and opened the wall.
we entered and again he closed the wall and it was seam-less.

Inside space of the wall was about three feet wide. and there was a steel mash
hanging on the inner wall. the mash seemed like a half inch grid.
The big guy starts to climb up the mash first.
It was really hard to grab because of the size of the grid but I tried really hard.

climbing
climbing
climbing

I looked down
no one was following us
but I couldn't stop.

climbing
climbing
climbing

I woke up with a shitty feeling.

It was rainning outside.

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Hole and glowing

The world in my last night dream, every object has a hole, just a black hole in the center of there weight, and it has a really abstract glowing around the hole.
Each hole has its own shape according to their i(including human) dentity and the glowing also follows the identity.

Basically, everthing in the world has a void on very center of their being.
Without the glowing, the hole is just a missing piece.

I was observing them with great sorrow.


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sound-1

simple thought.

Map of my brain001 by 523b

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steep hill

I was riding down to the hill with fixed gear bike,
and at some point i couldn't go forward because the hill became like a cliff.
I had to turn and climb back with lots of regret.

rest of the dream was about me imagine going downhill like I have no regret on this world that I living in.

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cb

시발좃같다고생각햇다.
아
아
아
아
아
아
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I

I've just realized that I am really angry person and don't know how to exhust those anger.



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Crossing the river

I was waiting for the river to be dried out so that I could cross.
There was a family who were waiting for it also.
Dad was an indian mom was white and the daughter was black.
They hung out with me.
But no one was sure when the water runs dry so that we can cross.

I was very anxious.
very very.

FYI

Since my first language is not English, my grammer might not be perfect.

thanks.

dream-4

My dad was driving his Toyota suv and I was sitting next to him.
The navigator said "turn left now" so we turned and there was very steep hill in front of us. He was thinkinf for a while and decided to go for it.
As we climb up the hill the alley way gets narrow.
'and we stuck'

My dad tried to back upp but the car didn't move at all.
I got off to check the rear and I saw an empty wheel case and I saw the wheel was laying down at the sidewall of the alley. I thought and shout out to my dad that we have to put it back.

----------sudden scene change--------------

I was on top of the hill in front of and old 5-story high condo building.
I sort of sucked into the building and start to travel through.
As I walking up and forward the scale of the space starts to shrink.
However, myself, was stayed in same scale; I became a big person little by little.
At the top floor, I finally stuck in between the ceiling and the floor.
I was strggling and I really wanted to proceed to the open space. The hallway was
sufflicating me.

'uhh!'

Soon after small blond girl came out from the apartment door and yelling at me.
I could not understand what she was talking about but I could tell that she was full of bullshit and its really annoying. I was desperate and looked at the smalle sqared window at the end of hallway. There was an mid-aged guy was looking into the window and the guy seems same scale as me.( So at the window from inside I could only see his face.) He talked to me.
" it is going to be alright."

I felt relieved. I could feel the love of god or some sort.

And I woke up and realized that I was smiling.

It was before the dream-2 was happened in me.

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sound of war

It was type of sound when a big trailer on a high way is braking. air brake? maybe.
It was very thick and howling sound.

I looked out of the window.

There was a humongous tank ship shaped whale flying high up in to air.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tank_ship

And obviously it has eyes and such, also its body was divided into several pieces in
latitudinal section in order to make curvy movement like on of those fish key chain.

Anyway, it took a while to see the other end of the whale and there was a big golden shark was biting the tail of the whale.

As a matter of fact, the whale was screaming and the sound was the scream.

The tank ship and golden shark was flying together as one big and dangerous object.

I flew away, start to decend and finally destroy the city as it landed on the ground. The city looks like London. And now the city was collapsing.

I was sad.
I thought I have to get up to save the city.
and I woke up with bad backache.

danm gold shark.

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killing slowly

fading away little by little is as bad as killing slowly.


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last night dream

In my last night dream, I was travelling with a box shaped boat.

I was on my way back to BRooklyn and I heard my dad was near a harbor.
I took a esat bound bus to the harbor to meet up my dad.

I took his boat.

It seems like a shoe box with some windows and it has peddles.
The boat was totally enclosed therefore no one could see through inside.

I had to peddle but it wasn't that hard.

Soon after I got departed from the pier, I could sit on a stream to NY.

Actaully, I had a fun. Enjoying quality time by myself in the boat,
looking at the people and the landscape that constantly change its colors and shapes
which reminds me of a music video "star guitar" by chemical brothers.

It was bright and happy but it was gray and sound at the same time.

I woke up because I didn't want to forget this dream and teh feeling that I felt at the very end.

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mirror.

i looked at the mirror
I thought I was crying,
but it was rain on my glasses.

privilege

losing a privilege on someone is really bitter.










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two crack whores

sigh,
i went to bed 5am this morning.
And I woke up once in the middle, I was really terrified and suflicated.
I thught I might die if I didn't force myself to wake up-
"Thank god! I can not remember this one."
And I went into my second dream, and I wasn't bad as the first one.

"Two crack whores were chasing me all night long to get money from me.
They were trying to collect money for some sort of retreat. BUT I was belived them.
I've assumed that is probably for a drug or a cover charge for trans-party. I didn't want to give any effort so I ran. I didn't even have any money anyway.
However, they were chasing me. They were fast. I ran all night long.
I've got up at some point. IT was 10am.".

' humm. they were kind of cute. '


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dream-3

There was two guy on that night.

There were at a balcony of skyscraper type of the building.

one guy pushed the other guy over the rail on the balcony.

The guy falling was good friend of mine.

He was falling as if he was drowning .


and
DEATH,
everybody said he commit suacide

for some reason
I woke up with a great joy

dream as a information.

I heard that the dream is an information you are supposed to forget.
So to say, the dreaming process is like a formatting your computer.
If that is true, " is my head is so tangled inside because of the dream that I haven't forget?

It is fun to dream sometime but i'd rather lose those thoughts.

please help me.


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dream-2

It was really blue sky at the roof top of a building.
There was 20-30 people wore same outfit.

black hat
black suit
black shade

And they were try to fly a guy, wears same outfit, with RED balloons.
It was tied on his shoulder and he was slowly floating up.
he looked very tired.
And there was a black chopper hovering above.

As the guy with the red balloon approaches the chopper, I realized the guy with the
balloon is myself.

I felt relieved. I thought that I got away with the black crowd.
BUT, as soon as I scanned inside, I got depressed because the chopper was filled with the same people with the roof top.

The co-pilot turn back to me and said "welcome my son".

It was my dad.

I woke up disappointed.

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B

Recently, i became really angry.

B

i want to touch you.


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dream-1

last night

there was one mouse and two hamsters.

the mouse was wearing mouse costum.

so i asked why are you wearing mouse costum.

and he took off his mouse costum and disappear.

and then, two hamsters started attacking me.

especially my hands.

my hand was all scratched, bleeding and sore.

and then i woke up with terrible back pain.

i should do something on my bed.

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B

think fast

live slow.

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a map of my brain

so, following this little clear balls.

i’ve entered interestingly tangled electronic field.

i don’t know where to go and where to come back.

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