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I am pretty sure that I have some sort of desire issue.
To be more specific, I always think that I can not do what I want to do.
How pathetic I am...

Whenever I feel this way I am looking back my childhood to find a starting point where this misery has begun.

Maybe the BB gun that my parent always against getting ?
Maybe the virgin ring from the church?
MAybe the skateboarding that my dad hated?
Oh maybe the Mcdonald that I couldn't get due to the famous vegan bullshit life style
back in the late 80's in my home town?
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ETC

Non of those conflict exsist in my current life anymore.
However, all of sudden, I 've lost my appetite to do something.(except sex of course)
I don't know what I want to do .
I am confused.
what am I?

I feel lame,silly and stupid.

Do I need to get a counseling?
Does it covered with my health insurence?

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